Dochtersions: Hello everybody! Under the name "dochtersions" I started, at the suggestion of my dear husband, in sharing my photos, fractals, and also some paintings, and other 2D art here at Renderosity. That was in January of 2010. I still use my two owls as avatar, which is a reduced image of one of my oil paintings.
The name "dochtersions" came into my head as only one, when I was looking for a name for my blog that I started in 2007.
This name is not that strange, as I know that God is my real father and mother at the same time, and I know that God loves me more and deeper than a man can aware of (or at least I think this way)
I live in the South of The Netherlands together with my retired husband. I've had various occupations. In my last job, I was working as an assistant to a paediatrician and a rehabilitation specialist. When I had children, I graduated "health awareness", and gave lectures on various topics, plus vegetarian cooking classes to teenagers.
My husband and I have together two daughters and four grandchildren. Which all live abroad, to be precise in Lacey (WA-USA) and Davos in Switzerland.
I've always been busy with all kinds of creativity. As a child I drew a lot, later pottery, needle art, tapestries, weaving, batik art, macramé, etc. Painting with oil was my last great hobby.
Around about the year 2000 I started having unexplained physical symptoms as well as insomnia, which was later diagnosed as having PTSD. It turned out that I had repressed a traumatized youth. However, the physical symptoms made that I no longer could be busy with my passions, the real painting, and other activities (f.e. reading books, gardening, travelling), which I was doing without a limit.
What I can stay doing well in limited form, is playing music on my mandolin and my guitar, and also to enjoy/listen my favourite music, which is including the cantatas of J.S. Bach and his sons , f.e. also music from G.F. Handel, G.Ph. Telemann, a.s.o. This is also the kind of music that my husband (on its church organ) and I (on my mandolin) play together.
After being diagnosed with PTSD a lot changed and I was forced to look for alternatives in which I could express myself. That is, that for years I started writing, and poetry, which go quite intense and as a sort of automatic. Unfortunately, my knowledge of the English language is not sufficient enough, so I write in my mother tongue, with sometimes a few exceptions. The thoughts come to my mind right at unexpected moments, and it’s wonderful, to surrendering to your train of thoughts.
In the encounter more and more of impossibilities, in connection with, f.e continuous pains, I learned to shift my gaze. Searching for distractions and alternatives, I learned to focus my happy mind on all the wonderful and admirable little things in the world around me.
My husband since 1968 Karel (kareldg on RR) bought a small pocket camera for me, and taught me to work with Fractal Explorer. Through my little Sony camera I learned to look differently, to see deeper; to see the details, the structure, how refined, and just so unique the small ones are in God's creation.
What is one of my daily tasks is trying to support people who suffer from PTSD, but they suffer more in an emotional way, and I can understand them and listen to their story (digital) they trust me.
Renderosity: What projects are you currently working on?
Dochtersions: Of course I would love to take more concrete technical knowledge to me (to acquire), and follow tutorials, how to work with Ultra Fractal, Mandelbulb, etc.. The capabilities of PSP investigate and experiment with it.
The manual of my current camera (Canon PowerShot SX50HS, and as pocket camera Panasonic DMC-TZ35, since 2020 I use a Canon PowerShot SX70HS). I would like to sift through, and experiment with it. But exactly that kind of things, such as reading comprehension, concentration, makes this especially, by the constant dominating intense facial pain, really impossible.
All in all, I continue to look for improvement, while in the meantime trying to be light-hearted, happy and hopeful, to be open to everything that's coming my way. I enjoy art, stay in the nature, the outer man/woman in me, the love that I've been given, to realize this, and to be thankful for. Wherever I am happy with is that I am able to meet so many lovely people through RR. Unfortunately, only digital, but I'm also grateful.
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Comments (4)
This is beautiful work.
Thank you very much, Joe!
Fantastic again
Thank you very much, illkirch!
Wisdom! Excellent work!
Thank you so much, rbowen!
I'm starting with the "next image" (the image after the last image I commented on). The first thing I noticed is that you expanded your Dutch poem into a longer English poem. And your imagery is very expressive: Your Dutch "Heeft de tijd genoten/in de tijd die ik streel?" becomes the longer and equally beautiful:
"Has time itself delighted/in the moments I unveil/in the hours it enjoyed/when I brushed it with my hand/stroking every fleeting second/I could barely understand?"
You expanded the Dutch line into a little journey of the soul, brushing past moments-of-time like one would brush flowers on a walk, "stroking every fleeting second".
And "I could barely understand" deepens what you wrote in your more "haiku-like" Dutch. (You've written several stanzas that feel like haiku, throughout your poetry.)
Then you speak of time 'teaching' us, giving us its wisdom..."For years become our teachers"---another expansion on your Dutch version. It's 'implied' in the Dutch---making the original poem a more compact, "packed" poem. Whereas the English version makes it a more leisurely, like a stroll...
A beautiful evocation of how we walk with time,of all the revelations it gives us, of how precious it can be, and yet how it warns us that it's ever-moving, never standing still. Both your Dutch and English have the same term: Time bomb. (Tijdbom, ja?) (Meditation is supposed to "stop time"---metaphorically. And deep meditation gives us the feeling of "slow time," time that has been stretched to last for eons...but even that cannot stop time: It never stops, at least not in this earthly life. (And btw, your English rhyme, again, amazes me---that you can translate so well, and use rhyme too! Professional translators spend years trying to do that well. I'm impressed!
Your fractal is like a beautifiul bronze creature or sculpture. It stands shows us its highly woven, integrated strands...they weave in and out of each other. And they form a creature who seems to crawl towards us. Or this could be a stellar object---something in the depths of space, whole and beautiful, and undetected. Your olive tones and bright greens and whites are beautiful highlights: To me, they suggest the natural coloring of bronze which has tarnished with time. Whatever it may be, it's another beautiful fractal from you. Beautiful work, both the poem and the art.
(Btw: I too noticed my name selected, in the Artist of the Year voting: It's been selected the minute I got there! I thought that happened to me because the site can see that I'm there. But if it happened to you, then someone apparently wants me to get votes! I'm really surprised. I hope no one "fixed" the voting. (Ze hebben de verkiezingen gemanipuleerd...) Sounds like my president!)
Thank you so much for your effort, and all the interesting words of your description and reflection, I've a lot of admiration for how you always write that. Gosh, I'm glad that (hopefully) no representative of your government is participating in the voting here, who knows how often the votes will have to be re selected. And who would believe who? haha, a little RR war.