Dochtersions: Hello everybody! Under the name "dochtersions" I started, at the suggestion of my dear husband, in sharing my photos, fractals, and also some paintings, and other 2D art here at Renderosity. That was in January of 2010. I still use my two owls as avatar, which is a reduced image of one of my oil paintings.
The name "dochtersions" came into my head as only one, when I was looking for a name for my blog that I started in 2007.
This name is not that strange, as I know that God is my real father and mother at the same time, and I know that God loves me more and deeper than a man can aware of (or at least I think this way)
I live in the South of The Netherlands together with my retired husband. I've had various occupations. In my last job, I was working as an assistant to a paediatrician and a rehabilitation specialist. When I had children, I graduated "health awareness", and gave lectures on various topics, plus vegetarian cooking classes to teenagers.
My husband and I have together two daughters and four grandchildren. Which all live abroad, to be precise in Lacey (WA-USA) and Davos in Switzerland.
I've always been busy with all kinds of creativity. As a child I drew a lot, later pottery, needle art, tapestries, weaving, batik art, macramé, etc. Painting with oil was my last great hobby.
Around about the year 2000 I started having unexplained physical symptoms as well as insomnia, which was later diagnosed as having PTSD. It turned out that I had repressed a traumatized youth. However, the physical symptoms made that I no longer could be busy with my passions, the real painting, and other activities (f.e. reading books, gardening, travelling), which I was doing without a limit.
What I can stay doing well in limited form, is playing music on my mandolin and my guitar, and also to enjoy/listen my favourite music, which is including the cantatas of J.S. Bach and his sons , f.e. also music from G.F. Handel, G.Ph. Telemann, a.s.o. This is also the kind of music that my husband (on its church organ) and I (on my mandolin) play together.
After being diagnosed with PTSD a lot changed and I was forced to look for alternatives in which I could express myself. That is, that for years I started writing, and poetry, which go quite intense and as a sort of automatic. Unfortunately, my knowledge of the English language is not sufficient enough, so I write in my mother tongue, with sometimes a few exceptions. The thoughts come to my mind right at unexpected moments, and it’s wonderful, to surrendering to your train of thoughts.
In the encounter more and more of impossibilities, in connection with, f.e continuous pains, I learned to shift my gaze. Searching for distractions and alternatives, I learned to focus my happy mind on all the wonderful and admirable little things in the world around me.
My husband since 1968 Karel (kareldg on RR) bought a small pocket camera for me, and taught me to work with Fractal Explorer. Through my little Sony camera I learned to look differently, to see deeper; to see the details, the structure, how refined, and just so unique the small ones are in God's creation.
What is one of my daily tasks is trying to support people who suffer from PTSD, but they suffer more in an emotional way, and I can understand them and listen to their story (digital) they trust me.
Renderosity: What projects are you currently working on?
Dochtersions: Of course I would love to take more concrete technical knowledge to me (to acquire), and follow tutorials, how to work with Ultra Fractal, Mandelbulb, etc.. The capabilities of PSP investigate and experiment with it.
The manual of my current camera (Canon PowerShot SX50HS, and as pocket camera Panasonic DMC-TZ35, since 2020 I use a Canon PowerShot SX70HS). I would like to sift through, and experiment with it. But exactly that kind of things, such as reading comprehension, concentration, makes this especially, by the constant dominating intense facial pain, really impossible.
All in all, I continue to look for improvement, while in the meantime trying to be light-hearted, happy and hopeful, to be open to everything that's coming my way. I enjoy art, stay in the nature, the outer man/woman in me, the love that I've been given, to realize this, and to be thankful for. Wherever I am happy with is that I am able to meet so many lovely people through RR. Unfortunately, only digital, but I'm also grateful.
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Comments (10)
Mies, een zeer originele en mooie fractal, de design is abstract en complex, fraai ingekleurd. Hou van de tekst. Sorry dat ik je nog geen bericht heb gestuurd, maar komt wel !!Veel groetjes!!!
Dankjewel, lieve Etiënne. En neem gerust de tijd, je kan beter van jouw prachtige tuin genieten dan naar mij schrijven. ;-)
Nicely done!
Thank you, Joe!
Very fitting Visualization and poetic Words!
Thank you so much, my friend!
Splendid creation and vibrant colours!
Thank you so much, my friend!
Beautiful picture and a very touching poem! I tried even to read the dutch version too to better understand the poem and I like it.
Thank you very much, and so special that you read it in Dutch. Really, such a lovely surprise!
Once again, this is a very impressive poem, and very fitting for Pentacost. I like how you envision Jacob's ladder (up to heaven) as a journey deeper into the soul. And I'm amazed, again, at your translating dutch into english, and how you created rhyme in both: Ie, "bescherming van hogerhand/ voor eenieder, in elk land." In English, it became: "protection from higher ground/ for every soul, the world around." You chose English words that rhymed--and they still captured the general meaning of the dutch. That's something translators work on forever...that's why there are so many translations of the masterworks of literature---it's so hard to capture one language in another. And where rhyme is involved, it's even harder.
Your journey here includes going up and down---both---as happens in all human growth. ("Sometimes you have to walk down a bit, before you can go up even higher...") And it includes joy and sorrow, gain and loss, etc "a ladder in layers, a metaphor, a vision". And the 'top' of the ladder is the Source too...climbing to the sky to reach the beginning...
You also have other forms of rhyme in both languages: Alliteration---"een ladder in lagen/ a ladder in layers"...(two "L"s in each line). The dutch uses a lot of repeated grammatical forms too, I presume (the "en" endings) that create rhyme and poetic repetition. I wish I knew all the meanings of these words: I'm sure it would be even richer. As you said, there are several meanings in a lot of words in your language. My amateur translations can't give me all the variations, unfortunately.
And you composed this in small lines---like the small steps of a ladder! (Nicely done, Jacomina!) We climb the poem the way one climbs the ladder.
Your image shows a ladder, and it's surrounded by "wreaths," and flying flowers. It's as if the whole universe were celebrating the ladder. (Well, Jacob's ladder should be celebrated by heaven. It's a visionary thing.) It's almost like two huge magnets which "bend space" around them---all those lines around the ladder(s) are like energy-lines reacting to the magnets' power. A beautiful image and poem, celebrating J's ladder, and the season of the first harvest (the original meaning of the day) as well the mystical meaning in Christianity, and it's significance to the whole world. Beautifully done.
Dear Mark, I'm so pleasantly surprised as you, both the fractal and the poem, a kind of studied/viewed, and think about it. That you take the time for that is really special. And, yes, it's a lot of thinking to convert Dutch into a decent English, and then in the end, after a very long 'search' I'm satisfied; At least, then I have to be satisfied. ;-)
I can work on this for so long, and I think it's a shame that Dutch expressions are impossible to translate. But I like challenges, haha, I suspect that you have this too, both as a writer as a musician, etc. Again, I'm very happy with your words, Mark, and also with your explanation. Thank you so much, my friend!
Your poetry has moved me more than you will ever know. As well this image fits well in givinging different perspectives on what is, is no matter how you perceive. Reminds me we are all different yet alike. Ou are such a gift that I am list for words . Please except my gratitude and thanks so much for you and your sharing of your talents. We are truly gifted with that. Never forget that! XoxoTree
Dear Therese, thank you so much for your deeply touching words, you did me feel better. Thank you for being you, my friend!
This is so pretty and colourful! Love the poem too :)
Thank you, my friend. :)